I’m transitioning from a snack to a whole meal.
I feel like I’ve lost my voice. I haven’t used it in a while, so understandably it would go wandering off. This is draft number eight, fingers crossed this is the one I finally hit publish on. Blogging used to be so easy, so much fun and so collaborative. I’d write about something I enjoyed, share it with my friends, they’d expand on it in their blogs and it would become this cool thing we were exploring together. These days? It feels like I’m so out of the loop. I don’t know what the cool fonts are, camera setups or even hashtags I should be using. Does anyone still use #abcommunity? Is that just brands now? By the end of my regularly scheduled posting (ha!) it felt like there were beats I needed to hit to stay relevant and I couldn’t muster up the energy to do so. So stopped, but here I am and now, three glasses of wine in I’m ready to put words to paper I feel so uninspired. What should I write?
What do the cool kids talk about? Should I be writing something socially conscious? Something fluffy? Should I stick to my old schedule? What do I even want to write about? I read back through my favourite blog posts and try to remember what my voice sounds like. It should be like riding a bike, but it feels like I’m scaling a mountain. The old adage is write what you know, so I guess I will.

Adulthood kicks ass.

While I’ve been away, I’ve been steadily growing old. It’s wild, at the big old age of 30 and I can confirm, adulthood is as awesome as they said it would be.

Sure, high-key adulthood is a scam, you’re more responsible for things, you somehow have more and less money, but I bought light up shoes last week, so I’m obviously living my best life? I can also decide to eat a whole block of cheese for dinner and absolutely no-one can tell me otherwise. I’m now super into nesting! Home-building is super addictive and I love buying things for my home! I spent a whole day waiting for an IKEA delivery then building a dresser, a table and two chairs. All by myself! It was so awesome! Sure, paying bills objectively sucks because someone is taking away your money, but I love checking off which bills I’ve paid each month! I like knowing I’m responsibly on top of things, it is such a good feeling knowing I have responsibilities and that I’m crushing them.
Before I babble, In short, I’ve got a great job, wonderful co-workers and there’s a boy I like. Ugh, don’t make a big deal out of it, stop looking at me like that, no that’s all the details you get. All in all, while 30 doesn’t look like I thought it would, it still kicks ass.

Hey remember you were a beauty blogger?!

Oh boy. Beauty Blogging. I sometimes feel like a fraud because I can go actual weeks without using a single sheet mask, or dare a say it a mask of any kind. That’s right, sometimes I just wash my face, add an oil and go to bed. Who even am I?
My cousin Tayo, who is my constant blogger inspiration runs The Five to Nine Traveller and always introduces me to people as her Beauty Blogger cousin. I snort laugh every time because, when was the last time I properly beauty blogged? Can one be a beauty blogger even though they can only be bothered to colour correct their under-eyes and wear lip gloss? No really, can they?!
Last weekend, my co-worker asked me if I wouldn’t like to work in the beauty industry after I dragged him around the stores to swatch eyeshadows, and I realised, I guess this side of me has never really died? Although I have other interests, when I think about blogging, beauty is still my passion. So since I’ve been gone (try and get that song out of your head now), what have I been using? For starters, now that brands are catering to more women of colour (yay) I am way more into makeup.

Lemme tell you, I’ve gotten super into eyeshadow palettes. Like, super into eyeshadow pallets. Who knew they could be so awesome? If it’s Zoeva, Urban Decay or Makeup Revolution, I can’t help but want. It’s kind of a problem? But also, if you refer to the section above, I’m an adult now, so.

My latest purchase was the Urban Decay Troublemaker eyeshadow palette and although I have now over 20 eyeshadow palettes (please don’t tell my mom) I know in my heart that it won’t be my last. When I first started this blog, I was dabbling in base makeup and eyeliner at most, so I guess a good place to try and find my voice is to update my old posts! I’m making a promise to myself, to update these posts by the end of the month. I wrote this post, so who knows, it’s looking more likely that I’ll write the following.
My favourite Cushion Foundations

This was one of my more popular posts, with brown girls everywhere wanting to get involved with the cushion foundation trend. Well now cushions are everywhere and my favourites have changed dramatically. I’m really looking forward to talking through why these are the only five cushion foundations in my stash, and which I’ll rebuy and which I’ll never purchase again.

Here is my skincare.. modesty?

That doesn’t mean I’ve abandoned my love for lotions and potions. I’m still super into skincare, and still weirdly the go-to person when the people around me have skin problems. My skin is currently freaking out for who knows what reason! Which means I have interesting things to share with you about what is working and what isn’t.

The products in my regular routine have drastically changed and as a result so has the way I store them. I no longer use storage bins, instead I use Muji storage. I initially bought these storage options for my kitchen, but I quickly realised that they would work better as beauty storage. It’s a pretty nifty set up, I sit on the floor to do my beauty routine and I find that it centers me a lot more.
I’m sure there are other posts I could revisit and update, but for now, let’s start small shall we?
Hi my name is Dee, I’m a beauty blogger and tomorrow I’d love to talk to you about what products are currently in my stash. See you then! ❤