Currently sat at home trying to plan out this application. I only have a month till the deadline. I’m super nervous and I keep trying to convince myself that pushing the deadline again would be stupid.

If I try and I fail then I failed.

It’s so bizarre, this fear of failing thing that I learned. It’s so unlike me, I’m not the girl who has fear. Who worries about what other people will think. If it doesn’t work out I think of a new plan.

I guess I’m just tired of being safe. Of being afraid.

So I’ll try, if I fail that’s that I guess? But I’ll give it my best shot.